Life is crazy. Lately I have noticed that I am running around in circles for no apparent reason. I have been treating life as a business. I know that it is important to be organized, but organization isn't more important than being with family and showing God's love to others.
Life is hard. The kids grow up. They grow more distant, even though there is that comradary, there is an important step that is taking place where they are becoming more individual. Who am I, who are we, after the kids leave? I have been convicted of the type of wife I have been. Yet, I am not sure how to articulate those feelings into words. I need to spend more time with my husband so that we don't lose sight of who we are.
Life is full of joy. In the midst of it all, I have a wonderful husband who has me in stitches most days. He is a blessing.
I think I put too much weight on who I am and what I am to and for people. I need to just feel free to be the woman God has made me to be. Lay aside the guilt and the martyrdom, and move on. I read a blog earlier where the woman stated that God loves us broken because He gave us Christ, broken on the cross. He wants to be the One to make us whole. I need to stop looking to the people around me to fill the broken places and look to the One who is calling me to Him each step along the way.
